The Process The Beginning!

Sorry I haven't posted in a while, but there is a little trouble on the home front with our family business my mother looking for a full time job while my father works 15 hours everyday to come home eat and then sleep. Things have been very hectic here at home a lot to think about now that I have started to read and things have started to change for the worse, but I am not going to let that ruin my life for now. I have to start teaching my self some of the more "basics" in photoshop. I even had to bust out my one click mouse just unwrapped the plastic a few seconds ago to make a mouse for my laptop. Normally I hate the mouse 1 click mice the reason for this is because it is only 1 click. I like a hybrid for my mac computer PC mouse meets mac is perfect fit. Like Edward for Bella. I have also just started to read twilight to get a feel and understanding of how my book should be read and how it should be written. Though I am a novice writer I would still like to state that my book is about 800 pages long! I have to cut a lot out, but in a way its just as exciting as if you put the release of Twilight and Tron together it has been a life long dream to write this story it is finally complete well at least the first book is anyways! Back to the topic at hand.

    The Beginning

    Now I am pleased to announce that this is just the beginning phase of what I am going to do with my life and my future projects. In the beginning there will be the first "crafts" of just the short things I will be doing, then comes molding or the "Middle"part. Then finally I will finish the projects with the "End" making the finale product with as little glitches as possible. This way I can make what I intended in the beginning just a little more polished as well as "nicely done" as some people might say.

     What happens now? Now is the start of a lot of new things that I need to get into before I start to mess up my life permanently! What I need to do right now is to get a little bit more of my acting in gear so I can get an agent. This a long term desire that I have all ways wanted ever since I was a little kid. If this does not work out I can all ways become a great Author this is one part that I all ready am beginning to do. Now that I have my book out of the way I can "Dissect" the twilight book and as an actor I can get a feel for the character and story line. Thus making my book as great or even better than twilight that I hope to achieve. Now you might be thinking what makes you so different that everyone else trying to copy the idea? I understand completely what other "copycats" are trying to with the idea that twilight is such a big book because of vampires. I bet you that they have no idea what makes twilight so great and if you knew too you would agree that they are way off topic. On top of this is not my intent at all I see things differently than other people and I constantly dream of it, thus not making me even on the same plane as everyone else. Now I am not talking out of the "box" I am talking about something else entirely different with my idea's for books, music, acting and even life in general if I had the money I and experience with movies I would make twice what everyone else makes. Why? You may ask what makes you so different. This is because I come from a long line of twisted artists thus making my outlook on life much different than your own. For example some ordinary people might thing that the movie "paranormal activity" is such a disturbing movie. To me this is just stupid and not scary at all if you give me the money that the movie people made I could make a million dollar movie of how messed up and crazy of a person my imagination can take you. Now I am going to give you some home work, I would like you to type in on you tube "The cat with hands" it's a clay motion short of a cat with human hands. Just to show you this might be disturbing to some people, to me it makes me laugh everyday things such as disturbing or horror or even grotesque just makes me laugh. What really makes me laugh is how weird out family members can get with our twisted heads full of all the weird stuff we can come up with to make everyone laugh around us, well at least within the family. We are a poor family, but we sure can scare everybody for life with our ideas. Getting back to topic there have been a lot issues I had to deal with like going to the hospital after I failed a test by turning in my test while looking at someone Else's test answer I knew right then and there that I had failed the test. I am sure a lot of other people did too, but what makes me mad is that this test was different than everything else this test was a bunch of word problems, this is what we vaguely did in class coverage of 1210 math. Now why would a teacher create a test full of word problems that we barely covered in a or 1 section. This doesn't make any sense don't get me wrong the teacher is funny in all it just doesn't make any sense he has seen the whole class fail on simple problems as well including my self. It just doesn't make any sense why would he do that he works out the problems with us, I know for a fact that now he is just using tests in the past. Though it's super easy just to scan the "Master Test" and make a few changes on it to dumb it down for the rest of us. Personally I think he is just lazy he wants everyone to understand the math, but I think is too lazy to realize that even the smarties in the class even have trouble with problems as everyone else. This is a Fail on the teachers part. Getting back to what I am doing with my life, it turns out that I missed registration because I had too much other things going on other than school. One of the major things that set me back was trying to get in contact with a lady from ECC from when I completed my audio engineer training and received a certificate from the school. Their job is to help me organize a resume and to get me hired. I am in the final stages of my resume. One of the problems I ran into with this is that for the past week I have been trying to get into contact with her to finish up my resume before I started another semester of school. I called her several times and sent her numerous emails to talk to her on urgent matters. The first day she was sick so I couldn't get mad at her for that the other time she called me and I was very busy at the grocery store with my mother so I had to call her back in an hour. The hour passed and turns out she was on the line with another person, so I called her back the day after out to lunch. I called her in an hour on the line with someone else now this has been going on for a full week. It's not her fault it's kind of my fault as well, but it's serious business I have been trying to push my resume for more than a week trying to get a response back from her, and I guess I will have to try early today to snag her and talk about what's going to happen. This is just one problem out of many I also have to call DVR to see if they can pay for my school again only this time now that I am almost finished with my CNM school. I will be moving on to continuing education which will teach me multimedia for future work. If this doesn't work out with ECC I all ways have a back up plan. This is what is going on in my school life right now, my mother has been egging me on about school and this is probably the last time I am going to tell her to get off my back about this or I am going to quite everything that has to do with school. I seriously don't know why this happens I think that this might be a safety mechanism that my subconscious has to where as I hear to much of it I quite its not even something I can control either; this will become a bigger problem in the future if I even have a wife that thinks on the same level as I am. 

     Getting off of the school subject I have been trying to arrange my site for my self as an Artist & Author for people to come hangout and chat like Face Book only a little bit more nymph on the forest side of life people who just love nature and love to listen to music. This was going to be a big project to release a lot of new things such as patches for other artists those who mess around on music and photo shop as well as people who come together and act. This was going to be more of social site for artists and those alike. This site was going to be an explosion for my new book with great new sound and wonder full eye candy this is the Beginning the beginning of a new type of site. I had bought some tutorials off of eBay for Lynda.com beginners for catalyst CS5 which I also have as well to start to use. The whole reason why I am doing this is because I don't want my information to leak out why this is going to be such a big deal! I have a formula why this is going to be such a big thus I have to do it my self, this is the whole reason why I am doing this. I am trying to build the site on my own, but with all the distractions of not getting back into the video tutorials I have to start all over again this weekend. I also was trying to learn python to get an Ableton job, but it seems I also have to learn that all over again :(. 

      So what is going to have to happen now is I am going to have to re-learn everything all over again to start to build my site I will mention why this site is such a big deal. It's not only a dream come true, but this idea will break a lot of how we as a community looks at the web it's self! Once I have everything relearned I will have to start on the remaking of my book as well trying to Analise different parts of my site to go along with book and where and how I am going to save up to make all the copies of this book. I have a lot to do not just on the site, but for my music to be copyrighted, my book is copyrighted thank god! Just getting everything ready to do some fun stuff can be such a pain! I have a lot going on and my mother thinks I do nothing all day LOL! What's very sad is she doesn't know about the internetz so I has to tech er about that too :"( this is going to make me cry. Anyways with out further a due I am going to stay why this is such a big deal on the Internet I even have everything copyrighted for this as well which is why I am so excited. I am just going to say it and leave everyone in awe about what's going to come! I love you all I just wish everything would turn up for better I really need to get out of this state I want to so desperately move to Oregon and become part of the community! Anyways here we go!

My site is going to be Holographic.

     

Scared of the World With the only plan I have!

I Am scared of the world because of what my brother has told me that and what I have seen. The world is a very scary place, if you don't have a plan to fall back on. I have a plan, but recently things have been a little more complicated than I once thought. There are so many options to explore. One of the things I can't take is  going to school, learning can be fun at times, but when it comes into perspective of the real world your time is wasting and this is what I don't want at all. I am currently working out a job with Ecc to see if they can find me a job. My brother is about four years older than I am, and has some real world experience we both want to get out of this state. This is what he told me and I realized he was right as much as I hate my brother because he annoys me to death and beyond is this. "I can't leave as much as I want to leave I can't because of school and you can't too because of the same reason. (I was thinking I have a choice where he didn't before, this is if the school that I graduated from can find me a job a great paying one too then I can leave I am set. If it doesn't work out like I thought because I only have one plan to get out of this city then I am stuck for life and I can't under any circumstance let that happen. As much as I need to get out of this city and my life started is as much as I wanted to tell my mooch of a friend bye!) With out a plan you have nothing you yourself don't have a job, you need a job more than school it self, with out a job your are screwed. If you can't get a job the least you can do is go for a business degree just keep chipping away at that degree, because most businesses need someone with a business degree in fact all businesses need it!" If a job like this doesn't work out the best thing I can do at the time right now is go for a business degree. I understand what my brother is saying now it took some time to compute. Though there is still one thing I don't understand and that is what then? What do I do when I have a business degree I will be stuck at the same place when I was contemplating about going into getting a business degree; if I get a job online that won't paying me much to live on there has to be something else I can do with my life! Living at home is fun for a while before you get so sick of the place your in you start to get a little crazy or turn into a zombie, I am to cleaver to turn into a zombie so I think at this point I will go insane. I have a lot of use full skills under my belt so to speak. I have been a white smith for a small business for six years now, basically turning dull parts to into shiny parts by polishing them. I have also been a small manufacturing worker for  the same time at this company. During my high school years I learned photoshop and began expanding my horizons with the company I worked for at the time. I made postcards for the company as well as small business cards and things along the line of this sort. I now have some real world experience that can use my talents for product placement, I have been using photoshopBurnie Burns of rooster teeth I shall say this. "If your starting something for the first time you want to go back and make revisions to it at least 2 times before you release it out to the public." With this said I have at least authorship under my belt along, with a lot of other talents to go underneath it now that I look back I have a lot of talents under my belt so I have a pretty big belt. I make music I have been for at least five years now, and since this cascaded into my audio engineering I consider this a major skill. Even before I was in my audio engineering college course I was a DJ for about four years this is an other hidden skill I have. I also have one other skill in my sleeves, but I feel that this is a little too secret to spill all over this blog, lets just say when I have a true girl friend who really loves me for who I am and who I love her for who she is she is going to love me even more ;). Never the less getting back on topic. I have recently just given out a sample CD of my work to a local guy who has been in a lot of bands over the course of 15 years. He now works at a local grocery store that provides us with out food since our family is a little "special" we can't eat any normal foods that everyone else can eat. Anyways my mother was shopping there one day and I guess my mothers reaction to what I hear from is.  Jordan you need to get an agent for your music! So I went back on a Tuesday when he was working and from what I herd is that I am pretty great at what I create on my own time. He has given me some little tricks that I can do in order to copy right all of my ideas for under 10$. Tuesday which is today I will be copyrighting all of my music, symbols, and of course my work. Then I can start giving my friend who works at the grocery store a whole bunch of my music and start to sell my EP on itunes. Though what I realized where my brother failed is that he is not taking the path that I am taking and I pray to god it turns into something beautiful!
To whom I was refereeing to as one of the great writers of this generation was Stephenie Meyer's who wrote twilight.
-Jordan Burgard

What happened this past week including Monday and Halloween! "October"

I've got my james my chai tea lets get this going. Lets start from sunday of last week shall we. Sundays are what I like to call my "day off" from everything even music making just sit back listening to AfterDark music such as paris or madrid watching the sun come up to the sun going down every night it's such a wonder full sensation. Though it's not like I sit in my office chair looking outside, this is where I read either listening to my BX8a's or through my Audio 4 DJ with headphones. Though I can't look out side too much since my windows points directly to another house and some of the street and thats it. Though if you saw where I work I'll have to upload a pic or a little movie of how I work. Getting back to where I was I made a list and it's very rare that I do everything on my list I have to be right in the mood to do everything on the list. Since I don't sleep in my bed my bed has just been piling up with dead machine crud. I have been looking on google maps that will take an old terminal monitor and to recycle old dead motherboards. I put in an effort when I try to look for a recycling plant and I am usually pretty lazy on my day off.  Found out that this "Recycling place" doesn't open on the weekends so it's a shame. After that I looked what new photographs where taken on facebook and on google. I live in the midwest and I really would love to live in washington stat it has been an all time dream of mine. Though not in a big city like a very very small city with about a thousand to about two thousand people and live my life there. I am sure that I would have to live in the big city to work, but thats fine for me. Since I live in the midwest or in this case Albuquerque, New Mexico there is nothing to do here and there are too many people here as well. This is also the place where I have been living my whole life and it is super boring the only time I have been out of the state is on some family vacations, but nothing too big. I used to resent going out on trips when I was a teenager, but now I can see why I would want to leave it's very boring here, well if you have been living here most of you "life". Though that is sunday for you just watching the sky listening to my jams I will tell you at the end what I listen to for those of you who love just watching or writing while you sit back and relax the melodic sound dive you deeper and deeper into your own world.
      Monday:  Mondays are usually my sleeping days to catch up on all that good sleeping that I have been missing in the morning on my school days, that and studying of course. I would either stay up the whole day or I would sleep as much as I could during that day. When I would wake up I would eat and go back to sleep or stay up and work on anything I have to do whether it would be school work or on my site or even designing my logos, or music making. I have a lot going on inside the internet such as a fan base is building up on my music, web, my artwork, and one big smash hit my book! Mondays are where I would get everything lined up for the week ahead of me. Such as school lunches, work and resumes. One of the best things about my Monday is that I don't let it get to me in other words. Most people who rely on Mondays to be there oh I am just waking up for the week. This 100% true for everyone even my self who I don't even party. Mondays are a day to where you work in the week for what you might be doing. A big tip I received from my mentor in my audio engineering days is. "Don't worry about Mondays, even if you are ready for a Monday the rest of the week is going to be much much harder for you. Though you might be ready for your Monday you won't be ready for the rest of the week." He is true about this I was ready for a monday and not ready for the rest of the week. Let your monday be the day to crossfade into the week if you mess up don't worry you'll make it kid. You might ask me why I talk in old lingo the reason for this is I was raised by my grandparents and a lot of old shows. I am 19 once in while you will hear me say some pretty old lingo it's a little funny, but thats just how I am.
     Tuesday: Tuesdays are my working days I try to get everything I am suppose to get everything out of the way so my study days "Wednesdays" are where I can focus on my school and internet objectives. Usually every Tuesday starts out the same way. I would either wake up eat, pre pair my food for my lunch at school or; stay up eat about an hour a head of time then pre pair my lunch about 15 minutes before I leave for school. Once I am at school I have about two hours of math and then my lunch. By the way I have a very thorough math teacher who is kind of funny this is a great way to learn. If you have a funny teacher your going to get great grades in that class. The only problem that I have in the class is how I am feeling if I am tired I can get all the info down right then and there. If I am awake then I will barely get any info at all and then I have to go study in the lab for about four hours until I understand all the methods of problem solving. After math class I listen to skrillex on my headphones and walk to the car and eat lunch in the car. I park the car in the sun so I can sit in a nice toasty car while on the outside since we are heading into winter weather conditions it's nice to eat in a warm car and eat. One more thing I love to do is download a pod cast and listen to it while I eat. Preferably a funny one so I can eat and laugh at the same time. About fifteen till 12pm I would walk from the farthest path away so I can listen to my jams and get set for my theater class. One of the best things I love to do is to make sure I am un-pre paired for this class is because the rest of the class doesn't know what we are doing anyways. We could be reading we might not or we might even watch some clips or talk about them. Though in college you want to have very active teachers or funny ones at least if you don't have either of those it's going to be a very very boring semester, so spice up your semester and find funny or very active teachers. The rest of my tuesday is getting all of my goals and chores out of the way so I can have wednesdays to work on my music or art.
     Wednesday: Wednesdays are usually my twitter and info days, whether I would work on my music or my website, logo's, art or even my misc it would be on a Wednesday. I all ways have a rule on what time I wake up if I would wake up 5am to about 12pm I would have to write in my book. If I wake up past or before this time I can't under any circumstances I can't work in my book, it's just a rule I have and it's one that works for me best. All right so on this day I would help out my mother or my father with anything they would want me to do, once I am done with all of what ever they would want me to do. I would sometimes work with my mother to develop the best logo or design since I live in a family of all artists sometimes you want different expressions on your work to get a better or a different angle on  what looks best. After I would work on my art I would switch over to my music, now this can get kind of tricky since when you make your own music it all depends on how you feel or that might just be how I work. If I don't feel all that great I will just make drum kit's or synth parts or small parts. When I feel like composing I would start on a the first park or the hook to get people interested in my music. Nobody or at least in my expression. Nobody wants to hear a solid 4/4 beat that will drive anybody insane. Deadmau5 has a 4/4 beat, but at least he mixes it up once in while it's not just straight forward. After I am done with my music I would eat and work on my homework for thursday. On thursday I have to turn in homework for the week. The processes repeats for next week until the end of the month is when I have tests on math and theater. About six thirty I would eat and get ready to goto church, call up my friend to see if he can drive me since we have been the best of friends for about 5 to 6 years. After church I would goto his place watch a couple of funny videos play games and walk home. Since my friend only lives about four blocks from my house, I would jam while I would walk to my house. When I would get home I would eat and work on my school work.
     Thursday: The same school schedule repeats here. Except that I would turn in my homework during the beginning of class. Though school would continue the way it was planned for that day. After school since I am sick of it I would go home eat watch a couple of youtube videos and take a walk outside. Usually I would do this about two or three times a day for exercise. This can happen any time over the weekend. After my friend gets off work we would eat and goto a teen church service called "Wake" I forget what it stands for, but it's a lot of fun! This is where my weekend begins, after church the church would invite us to chick fa le the owner of the church owns that chain. It is open to the church people from 10pm to midnight. My friend and I would decide weather or not we would not go, if not we would eat some where else or go to his house and hang out watch videos and play games. After that I would walk home and get started on what internet or studio project I have going for me. Although since this was the week of halloween I had to get everything ready including my costume. This lead me to the idea that I would have to sleep in order to get all my parts ready. Even though I have had all my parts from six months ago I still lacked some key parts.
     Friday: Since I woke up late I realized what time it was I only had about two hours before a couple of stores closed luckily I only live about 15 min from each store so I had plenty enough time. Grabbed my keys wallet and ran out the door. First store I went to was the spirit store located inside the mall. Buying a Hairnet, walking out of the store playing a skrillex track in the car while I drove over to the other store, to buy my cosmetics. One of the key parts I needed for my costume was makeup. I wasn't going to a grocery store to buy grease makeup, this can cause your skin to break out in zits this is not what I wanted at all I wanted professional makeup that would help out my skin and I could wear it anywhere at any time. This is what lead me to the M.A.C store not the apple store where you buy all your computer and music players. This store is very pricy for its makeup, although it will last you a long time and it helps out your skin too! Now mind you I don't have a job, so I had to break my piggy bank to go over and buy some makeup, but now I am set for life on cosmetics. This all ways breaks my heart because I am saving up for a special product for me to finish my book completely this product all ways sets me farther and farther away :"(. Anyways once I had everything for my costume I would eat and fall asleep for the next day I am all ways so tired.
     Saturday: This day is where I would catchup on all my Audio engineering videos and shows that missed over the week such as, Family Guy, Southpark, The Cleveland Show, Haven, Rookie Blue, Warehouse 13, Eureka, The LXD and The Vampire Diaries, I watch these on www.hulu.com . Once I am caught up with everything I would work on my Art and Music. Since every saturday I would give away a free track and artwork for those who follow me on Twitter and Facebook you can follow me here and here to get some free goodies https://twitter.com/#!/Jordanburgard http://listn.to/BurgardRecords :D.
     Sunday: This is my devotion to god, walk around and view everything while I would walk around just trying to get a better view on things, this might change my dreams I have or even inspire me to include some of this into my book. I love nature, but since there is not enough of this in Albuquerque once I am ready I will move out of this state and only comeback to visit friends and family.
Monday: The Cycle repeats, though I will have to tell you new rotation of this week will be because I need to get out of this cycle!